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Posted Sunday, April 5, 2009 // 10:27 AM
gosh...it already april of 2009 and already..i feel like time passed by a buit slow and a bit fast...well lately I been very busy and okay at work...it ish stressful and alot of pressure have been on me lately cauzed by my mom...i dont know why but whenever I am at work..I feel like Im being the center of attention...for some reason...and now workwise I feel like the 'siu bang' of some people. I just cant take it...My mom keeps going to work and suddenly she starts to shout her voice at me...as if i did something majorly wrong...then later after the shout, the co-workers start to talk and I over hear them talk about me....such as, : "I cant believe Jess being yelled at..." " why ish she being yelled at?" or then they start to giggle as if it was a little show or so....OMG I CANT TAK IT!!!.....yet I have nooone to take it on and like when I talk back my mom starts to throw a little scene where she always talks and noone responds. Im thinking WTH?....worse ish whenver there are customers around she even continues to speak chinese to me and scolding me...Im thinking...:omg such an embarrasement your making for me...=T. But yeah..at least this little thing happenes almost everyday while at work....=T....I feel like I just want to go back to NY and take it off on someone right now....!....ARG...I wish already where she and uncle and some of the rest of workers can go to the Downtown restarurant and open that up and stay there already...cauze I really cant take this anymore...!....><Aside from that...socialwize everything okay...well I think...I dont know..I kept trying to call people...but seems like they all disappeared from me or so...gosh I miss them so much my relatives and my friends....=T....at least when I am in NY i feel like I am actually home where I am being recognixed and such..unlike where I am in now which ish Maine where I feel like Im in prison along with some other people being used at and talked about as a showcase person where I being giggled at, pointed at even embarrased at....=T...Gosh I seriously need another vacation back to NY where I feel more at home and seeing everyone else I know more...cauze seriously I feel like I cant take this anymore...the more I feel embarrassed at by my mom scolding and being used as a pressure bag a bit..the more I feel more a bit hurt inside and feel the urge to cry a bit infront of everyone...=T... Hopefully when my mom goes back to NY...I can follow here and get a little vacation myself...hopefully for like a week or so..cauze I really feel like the urge to take it out on someone right now face to face...but fornow..I have this entry... Labels: random.. |
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Given name Jessie :) age : 22. Aries. Taken (maybe). Loves listening to music (depends on what gets her in the mood) Chatting and trying to be a realistic person :) MusicBoxx
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