❝ From all the truth that I said, I am going to give all my SECRETS away... ❞
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Posted Saturday, April 9, 2011 // 12:33 AM
 Lately I been feeling kinda down becauze of something that occured in my personal life. I feel things between us have felt like all a dream. One moment you feel like your in a fairytale story where you are the main girl lead and the guy you once knew and dated have suddenly disappeared from your side. sighs~ that how I been feeling lately..it just tough forgeting someone you really feel deeply in love with yet plan things out with him when you soon realize after a last kiss goodbye and spending time with him turns out being all a dream... but yeah. Alot has happened or feel has happened to meh. I been lost and confused and in agony too. I keep thinking of him too much yet, I know I must forget him sooner or later, even though he has forgotten meh already I feel what I have for him seems real and deep. In life, there are ups and downs but I know this feeling will never leave meh for quite a while...it been weeks already and so far all I can think of is him and moments we used to spend time together and see each other. I sometimes would question myself, Have I scared him off?..why isn't he talking to meh?..why isn't he answering any of my calls?..are we over or just in a patient mood right now?..I really want to know what going on between us..is it just meh overthinking it or maybe my instincts are being targeted and all the guessing is correct?..I really want to know... Work on the other hand getting alright havent done mch but mainly when my mom and her bf off from work as in off that one day of the week, it my role to end up doing alot of stuff. (washing dishes, answering phones, cashier and packing orders.) I feel like everything I do is like a burden yet, while I work all my mind is thinking of is him. I just dont know anymore..and all the questions still surround my head looking for answers. Answers I really want to know. but yeah  anyways not much. I recently also made a new friend too. :) he a nice guy and I feel like he a gor gor now to meh. whenever I have probelms or need someone to talk to I always call him. He like my ear whenever I need to stress out or talk I call him. not only does he listen (he also has the same phone company as meh so I can talk with him all day for free since mobile to mobile)but yeah. even though we havent really met but we do chat as penpals and talk. right now getting ready for bed so Ill blog another day :) night night. |
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Given name Jessie :) age : 22. Aries. Taken (maybe). Loves listening to music (depends on what gets her in the mood) Chatting and trying to be a realistic person :) MusicBoxx
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